His breath catches and his pulse speeds up as he's pulled closer, his hands going to Derek's chest and side as he looks up into the man's cool hazel gaze. It pleases him to know that he had Derek that wound up. "I don't regret it, even though it went a little faster than I thought -- well, anything would be. But I wanted it and I won't lie, it scared the shit out of me to know I could want something and someone so much."
The mention of Lydia made his brows raise and yeah, that ship sailed a long time ago. He knew it would never happen and he finally learned the difference between loving someone and being in love with them as well as loving the idea of them being together rather than wanting it for what it was. Lydia was a beautiful idea, but nothing he could ever truly obtain and he got over that. Sure, he still thought she was beautiful, but more in an abstract way.
"I'm glad you didn't. I don't think I would have been able to take it, I don't think I would have realized that's what you were doing. It would have hurt and I would have given up." Even now he hates thinking about the thought of Derek with someone else and it makes his chest ache and twist in the most unpleasant of ways.
Leaning forward, Stiles mashes their mouths together in a hard, biting kiss, only pulling back when he needs to breathe. "I don't ever want to see you with anyone else, ever. The pack is one thing but even then... You're mine as much as I'm yours."
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on 2012-08-04 11:30 pm (UTC)The mention of Lydia made his brows raise and yeah, that ship sailed a long time ago. He knew it would never happen and he finally learned the difference between loving someone and being in love with them as well as loving the idea of them being together rather than wanting it for what it was. Lydia was a beautiful idea, but nothing he could ever truly obtain and he got over that. Sure, he still thought she was beautiful, but more in an abstract way.
"I'm glad you didn't. I don't think I would have been able to take it, I don't think I would have realized that's what you were doing. It would have hurt and I would have given up." Even now he hates thinking about the thought of Derek with someone else and it makes his chest ache and twist in the most unpleasant of ways.
Leaning forward, Stiles mashes their mouths together in a hard, biting kiss, only pulling back when he needs to breathe. "I don't ever want to see you with anyone else, ever. The pack is one thing but even then... You're mine as much as I'm yours."